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Thursday, October 5, 2000 OK, I'll admit it. I watched Charmed tonight with the girls...It was the season premiere...hard to admit that I'm hooked on that show... Em's in bed and Katie is crashed out on the floor. That means Mom's going to bed, too... And did I mention...That I got a really beautiful card from Angie last night? And a simply LOVELY e-mail from Chris? Do you know how very fortunate I am? I have such a rich life here on the net - I've been so very fortunate in most cases...At the beginning of the year we started a writer's forum - exchanging each other's work, offering help, suggestions, etc. to improve and grow as writers. These women are so supportive of me and each other. It's simply incredible, that in this sterile environment, that we can have such rich relationships. God, it feels so good to have such great karma from these incredible women. Thanks to all of you. Angie & Chris. Sandra & Tab. Steph & DQ. Diann & Shana. Thanks for making my life so very rich. First Day in the new home...I was so overwhelmed yesterday, that I didn't even stop to thank all of the folks who were so supportive. Thanks, DQ for starting this post - and thanks to all who chimed in...It's folks like YOU who make doing a web site with an attached community worthwhile. Today, I actually added stories to The Other Side today, so I feel like it's back to business as usual. I'm so fortunate to have such great writers, artists, and community members. (((hugs))) Oooops! Didn't mean to leave on a downer!I was just so wiped out and overwhelmed yesterday. I am feeling better mentally today, not so wiped out and such, but damn, I'm still tired.... More later Wednesday, October 4, 2000 I just realizedThat I haven't eaten dinner tonight. Yes, I know it's late - it's about 10:30 my time. I ate some toast about 6:30. I've had a glass of ice tea, two cups of coffee (ummm, with Godiva Liquor in the coffee) Otherwise, I'm feeling a bit better...a little calmer, I think... :::breathe in:::::deep breath::::::::::exhale:::::: nighty-nite I'm WIPED!Damn, what a rough day. I started out early - the alarm went off at 4 and I bounded out of bed as I knew I had to make a run to the grocery store - I realized about 10:30 last night that we had no milk...Got milk, peanut butter, oranges... Came home and drank coffee, went to the gym and did the net bike thing to catch up on e-mail and some of my reading. (shhhhhh! Don't tell Jeff, cause he would get some sort of sadistic pleasure out of this, but my legs are SOOOOOO sore!!) At the gym, I realized that all of the posts made on Tuesday on my main Inside the Web board had disappeared....Shit, shit, shit!! Luckily I was able to read some feedback on one of the message board systems I had tried, and several had some positive words.... I'm just mentally drained...and my body is physically tired...and fuck, I don't want to be all whiney tonight...but here I am all vulnerable feeling tonight, wishing I could have some "me" time, and not have to be a mommy for a few minutes...but Katie is a tad clingy...and Emily keeps playing her fucking flutaphone thing and isn't cleaning her room. :::sigh:::::: I feel like I'm PMS-ing - if only I had some hormones, I think this chemical menapause is WAY worse than PMS!! later And I DID move it....I moved The Other Side message board from it's old home to it's new one today. I hated having to move there - the board has been there for a year...and this one doesn't give me cutesy things like "stats". But overall, I don't want the hassle of wondering if things are going to go by the wayside. That's way unfair to people posting - especially writers getting feedback..... Tuesday, October 3, 2000 Oh, and...I work in a small company. We have under 200 employees. The executive branch consists of the VP and the Pres (I work for both - though I "report to" the Admin Services Mgr) We recently re-hired an ex-employee at work, she used to have my job (Executive Assistant) as well as a job as the Admin Services Mgr. Well, she was hired back as a "Cost Accountant". Got the picture? Hope so.... Anyway, before she was hired, I had been working on a project of reviewing jobs. My part of the job requires printing tons and tons of paperwork from Excel, pulling together 13 copies of each, etc. Each packet is about 2 inches thick or so... Then several managers get together and talk about the jobs. Well, I was told that at the end of October, I will no longer have to go to this meeting, so I'm thinking "GREAT! No longer will have have to prepare these massive handouts...no 2 hour meeting every Friday! Hooray!!" Well, she and I met last Friday about these meetings, and she was trying to argue the point that since she was a "cost accountant" and I was an "executive assistant" - her time was more important than mine, and she shouldn't have to prepare the paperwork for the meetings. So, here she was thinking that I would do all the paperwork, but not participate in any way in the meeting. I suggested that she just wait until the next round of meetings were ready to start (the end of the month), find out HOW the data will be pulled, etc. She e-mailed the meeting leader, her boss and our VP (one of my bosses) TODAY (the 3rd) with the language "I do know that (My boss) is not particular happy with the thought of my doing even more clerical duties" The team leader took the bulls by the horn and e-mailed the VP with things such as "I feel that I may not have a complete picture on this subject, as it relates to each person's tasks from a strategic view, including skill improvements, and career advancement. Any thoughts?" Well the VP responded back, copying me on the e-mail (til this time, I was NOT included on the e-mail) "Debra was needed only for this interim period...(the cost accountant) on the other hand will be the key player - I don't see this as a "clerical duty" but rather as the areas that job costing will have it's greatest payback. THANK YOU! Pointing out that THAT IS HER JOB!!! Damn her for trying to push off her stuff on me! Yes, I am a secretary, but that doesn't mean I don't have my own projects and responsibilities. Thank you! Searching for a message board...You would THINK I could find another message board service that was decent, ya know? I've spent the last hour and a half searching and trying and stuff... Ups and Downs of the day...Well, I started the morning out VERY early - alarm went off at 4:15 AM - and YES! There was Fresh Coffee!! Jeffrey overslept and called the house at 4:40 this morning - gee, Jeff - why don't you just wake up everyone? That was OK, though. We changed our 5 AM to 5:30 AM - which gave me extra time to see the convention pictures that had been e-mailed to me from Dear Diann... Went to the gym and worked out for the first time in a LONG time w/ Jeff. First, though, we did measurements. :::::sigh::::: Yes, measurements....I had worked very hard to get my body fat percentage down - and in April it was down to 23%. Six months later - here we are - 29%. It hasn't been that high in 2 years. See, as long as I could keep the body fat percentage down, I didn't stress over the numbers on the scale. But this is part of the hell of the endometriosis treatment. 13 pounds and a fatter body in the 6 months since my surgery... :::Big Sigh::::: But Jeff was kind enough to point out to me that since I had been there before, I could do it again. And that my measurements were good - that I had that "hourglass thang" going (38-31-41) - and my waist is two inches smaller than it was 2 years ago when I started... Jeff put me through a KILLER workout, though - trying to see how much weight I can push - and though I felt the urge to just puke, I didn't! I'm sure I'll enjoy it more and more as the end of my treatment approaches (October 12th is my last shot)... Hobbled into the locker room and has some nice girl bonding with some of the other morning ladies - it ranges from one of us to five - and four of us were there this morning - catching up on each other's jobs, personal lives, etc.... Nice lunch with DH, too. He fixed noodles and yummy meat sauce - and it was ready when I popped home for lunch...ahhh...I love him so much...and he spoils me rotten... Monday, October 2, 2000 And damn, but do I have my head up my ass? I was trying to get everything ready for tomorrow morning, fixed the coffee pot so that it would be ready when I got up - and what do I do? I turn it "on" instead of putting it on "auto alarm". Now, it's 15 minutes til I wanted to get in bed - and now I have a fresh pot of coffee (Oh, yes, I finally DID remember to get some coffee when I went to Starbucks on Saturday (Breakfast Blend - by the way). So I guess I'll have a cup now...and re-fix the pot so I'll have fresh in the morning. Oh, and I MUST get up when the alarm goes off in the morning - I have a 5 AM w/ Jeff... I'm so thrilled that my good friends had a great time at Convention - but I'm so bummed I wasn't there with them ;-( ((((hugs)))) to you all - send me some big hugs back, 'cause now after hearing back about some of convention, I'm bummed.... ::::sob::::: LOL! Em is watching The Sexiest Bachelor thing on Fox...and is drooling over some of the guys in their swimsuits, yet is grossed out at the men who have really hairy chests...what can I say? She's nine...it's the raging hormones, I guess. But it's funny, here I was - bitching about having to shave my legs, and Em is watching guys on TV, commenting it would be nicer if the MEN would shave their pits.... Can someone tell me...Who's idea was it that women needed hairless legs? Damn, but I HATE shaving my legs:::grumble:::grumble:::grumble::: But I did it anyway.... Let down by Inside the WebWell, I've tried other services, and haven't wanted to change, but damn, it looks like I'm going to have to! Most of the messages from last week dropped off - or else I have someone hacking into the board and deleting messages.... Check this one out and see what you think... Personalities around Web Forums....Too damn funny - need to review it some more to see WHO I see - LOLSunday, October 1, 2000 Yes, you must see...We DID get to go see Remember the Titans last night. All four of us, and we REALLY enjoyed it! I figured that Katie wouldn't much care for it, but she liked it (though she didn't understand the racial stuff). So, if you get some time, go see it. It has Denzel Washington in it as Coach Boone and is based on a true story. Em understood a bit more, but did have some difficulties understanding the true racial division of 1971 - and I guess that's good, huh? It means she has no real experience with hate based on the color of a person's skin...Thank God... Knowing me...Got an e-mail today that really brought tears to my eyes. Did you know that there are some people out there that care about YOU? Not for what you do, but for who you are? I've been running The Other Side for more than 15 months, and as the website grew, I began struggling with some issues - do people want to know me because I'm the webmistress? Or is it because I'm me? There are those who make a great front of wanting to be my friend - but in the longrun, it's only proven that it's because of what I DO... But today, I got an e-mail. "Are you ok? I've been worried about you...is everything ok?" kind of e-mail. Thank you... ((((big hugs))))...it means more to me than you could know.... Saturday, September 30, 2000 I really must go to the store...Yep, another run to Starbucks - and didn't buy coffee to brew - just bought a big 'ole cup for me, hot cocoa for the girls (yep, both Em & Katie dragged out of bed to go *g*) Banana nut bread for DH... As soon as we down this yummy stuff, it's off to the gym and running for the day. Think I can get Mom and Dad to watch the kids so DH and I can see "Remember the Titans"?? Friday, September 29, 2000 Progress?Dixie (our Toy Fox Terrier) got a bath tonight. Her kennel is behind my desk chair, and I couldn't take it any more. She was STINKY, even though she got a bath right before we went on vacation (2 1/2 weeks ago...)but she was ready. I said, "Let's take a bath" and she went to the bathroom and waited by the tub. Guess in her old age (13 1/2) she is likes being clean. Also worked on the re-vamp of my personal web page. Damn, but it was WAY out of date (I hadn't done an update since 04/99) and it is taking me FOREVER...Time for bed, now...nighty, night OOOooops! Almost forgot!Do you realize that Sunday is Grey Day? Yikes! I have work to do...as I plan to observe Grey Day on The Other Side... A Trip to the Mall...Well, had to break down and finally get a haircut. I absolutely HATE to get my haircut - mainly because I hate spending the money on myself. But every once-in-awhile, I tire of trimming my own bangs, break down, and make that visit to Freddie at Toni & Guy at The Parks Mall. Dear Freddie doesn't complain that I haven't been there in ages and gives me a great cut. Now I'm good for another 3 months or so...(or will it be six?). While I was at the mall tonight, I also got hit up to do a product test at home for Savitz Research. I know most people try to walk by those folks in the mall with the clipboards as quickly as possible, but they have to make a living, too - ya know? So in my skillet right now is some turkey breast cutlets...and tomorrow or Sunday, I will open package number two... Ciao for now Moving on...Ever since I've been back from vacation, I've been simply TERRIBLE at my correspondence. I mean TERRIBLE. I got The Other Side back up and going, and even did two updates this week....but I was so far behind at work, that I just didn't have any time to play or enjoy my on-line friends. Now that I'm caught up, many of my friends are gone to the Trixie Belden Convention Hope you had fun Beth, Shana, Diann...(((hugs))) and I'm BUMMED I'm not there with you three.... HOPEFULLY, though, I can skim through and get my web page (you know the old one that hasn't been updated in AGES) updated this weekend.... I simply don't believe it...After fiddling with this on and off...messing with what color where..which lovely graphic of Miz Kitty's to use where....I think I finally have something I'm happy with!! I must e-mail her so that she can check it out...and so she can let me know if I'm using her graphics in an OK manner. Coffee...Damn, did I need coffee this morning. Sadly, the coffee canister is bare... Sad, sad, sad....but I got Emily up this morning (see, you love your kids, and each day gives each of you a chance to be nice to each other again) and she hurried and got dressed and we hit Starbucks for breakfast... Coffee (Verona - my FAVE!) and a molasses cookie for me....OJ and a Chewy Walnut Cookie for her....Happy, happy.....joy, joy...caffeine in my veins... Thursday, September 28, 2000 I think I've basically figured this thing out...Tomorrow I think I'll begin working on a template...and I need to re-do the rest of my web site sometime, too. Damn, I spend so much time working on The Other Side (my main web site - the one that has stories geared towards a "more mature" audience) that it has been ages since I've updated the Trixie Belden Friends Directory and more than a year (more like 18 months) since I've fixed my personal site. I really want to get it updated. And the OTHER thing I'd like to do is my Trip Report from our trip to Disney World. I want to share it with all the folks at the Readers Clubhouse on Rita Aero's site... For now, though, I'm just thrilled I figured out WHAT this is doing - and that I can actually publish and it appears... nighty night... Next...Now that I have Em in bed, Katie is my next project :-) She is going to have an early bed time tonight, too! Grrrrr!Do you ever want to just strangle your kids? After a week at Disney World, we are all having a rough time getting back into our regular routine. But Emily has really pushed me to the EDGE! She had forgotten to bring home her report card for DAYS, and when she finally did - she had a "C" in Science - her favorite subject. And I just talked to her teacher, and she told me that she simply didn't turn in a paper.... Punishment is going to bed EARLY...gotta make sure she is in bed with the lights out and not reading....More later... Yep...I did it!...Well, I finally did it! I got a BLOG! I've been wanting to for weeks and weeks...I read other blogs on a regular basis - such as Kitty, Kitty... Well, going off for a bit - need to pick up the kids and meet Gran Gran and Grandaddy (my mom and dad) for dinner... Ciao for now! |
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