Well, guilt got to me. I really, really needed to do my weights, so I went after work. I'm not too fond of this workout right now, so I told Jeff (who was working out tonight, not training) that we needed to CHANGE it! Yes! Please! I don't like it! :p

But I had a decent work out, the kids and I went to Jason's Deli for dinner (yummmm Corned Beef w/ Italian Potato Salad), then came home.

I actually did an edit on a story for a friend, sent her my comments, typed a couple of e-mails....now I'm basically dozing here at the keyboard...

Couple of other quickies:

DAMN, but it is COLD! The temps are in the low 30's, and the wind is out of the north. Brrrrr!

And thank you to JenC, Shana, Cathy and Karen for recently telling me something about my blog here. It's so nice that there are folks that are reading. Hopefully I won't get too off on a tangent or too boring :-) (((((hugs))))))))
posted by ...deb at 10:45:29 PM

oh, and NO, I did NOT go to the gym this morning. The temperature dropped into the 30's and when I woke up, it was cold and it was RAINING! so I snuggled back under the covers.....maybe tonight....
posted by ...deb at 9:12:40 AM

Did I tell ya that I...

finally found Splenda? It's the new low calorie sweetener that is made from sugar...I was at Albertson's and THERE it was, in it's little yellow box, among all of the pink and blue boxes....There is less than 1 carb per packet, which is what I want, and even though it's made from sugar, it's ok for diabetics to use....

And the taste? WONDERFUL! It really does taste more like sugar. So, goodbye Equal....goodbye Sweet & Low....Helloooo Splenda!
posted by ...deb at 9:08:52 AM

Can you believe it??!!

I had told Emily that they might not know who was President when she went to bed last night, but I never DREAMED that they wouldn't know when we got up!! Incredible!!
posted by ...deb at 8:32:29 AM

Home!

We are BACK from the gym! What a rushed evening.

I picked up the kids from day care, swung through Burger King and got them something to eat, and headed to the gym. We sat at the little cafe at the gym while they finished their dinner, and then I checked them into the Q-for-Kids.

I went to the class and "reserved" my bike, and had some time to kill, so I jumped on a net bike and checked e-mail, then it was time for class. WHAT a wild class! It was full - 12 of us plus the teacher - and we road to Bolivia ;-)

THEN, grabbed the girls, changed out of my sweaty t-shirt and into a sweat shirt, then ran to the mall so that we could hit GNC, 'cause it's Gold Card Tuesday (which means a 20% discount). Got Mark's Creatine in Grape, and me some of the Cookies & Cream Premier Eight Bars (a rain check for the Frosted Lemon ones, which are my faves) as well as a few of the new Solid Protein - Chocolate Mint.

I've done fairly well on my eating these last two days. Yesterday was a great focus, though short on the water.

Today? Not tooooo bad. I did have a piece of chocolate cake today, but otherwise....Chicken for lunch with some cole slaw, my "stand-by" of scrambled eggs (2 whole eggs, plus 2 extra whites) with a couple of pieces of toast, as well as about 2/3 of a Solid Protein Bar (31g Protein, 11g Carbs, 1g Sugar). Still not enough water, but I can try harder tomorrow.

Nighty-night, folks. Need to hit they hay as I need to try and hit the gym in the AM so that I can do my weights....
posted by ...deb at 10:08:00 PM

I do NOT fucking believe it.

Somehow, I deleted a whole week of my blog off my server, and it's gone. Yep. Gone. See, I hadn't figured out how to really do the archive thing. It would never archive the way I want it to. So I was hand doing it. Copy / Re-Name / Delete old entries...

And it was one of those important weeks, too. Of course, every day in life is important, but it was my week that I got my last Lupron Shot. My questions about what is genetic and what is environment.

See, this shit messes with your mind, and you clicky click things that you don't mean to.

I must have done it last week when I did my archive. Shit.
posted by ...deb at 10:51:43 AM

damn, damn, damn. I didn't mean to delete a file off of my The Other Side website, but I did. Sure hope I have it on disk.....
posted by ...deb at 9:27:41 AM

Gellar, Prinze May Help Scooby Oh, PULEEZE! Don't mess with my favorite cartoon by turning it live!!
posted by ...deb at 8:25:22 AM

And did I tell you...

Let's see:

Am giving up on kick-boxing class, at least for now. Seems I have "bursitus" in my hip flexor area on my right side, as well as in my right shoulder.

B U R S I T U S - gee, that makes me feel OLD. REALLY old, ya know? A few months back, I had complained to Jeff about my hip bothering me a bit, and we discussed stretches to do to relieve it, etc. I really thought he was pulling my chain a bit, especially since I'm so "old" to him (He's 27, almost 28, and I'm 32) (and remind me to tell you another story on the age issue). But no, there really is an area in your body called a "bursa" and you don't have to be an old person to have it bother you.

Anyhoo, so it seems that I'm seeing some more effects of the Lupron treatment. See, wiht a reduction of estrogen, there is a loss of bone density. Hopefully, at my age, I can re-build that density - and I try to take calcium to help it, but there is no guarantee that it will. My regular doc's opinion (this isn't my ob/gyn I saw last week) that the loss of bone density has aggrevated this condition. Sooooo.....after all these months of no estrogen....The doctor just confirmed Jeff's opinion.

Anyway. So, since I told Dr Purgason that I didn't need a prescription anti-imflammatory, he told me to apply heat, take Advil...and I've looked it up on my Aromatherapy book....

Oh, and since I'm not doing the kick-boxing, I've started taking the Spinning / Cycle-Reebok class, the one that Mark is so crazy about....
posted by ...deb at 9:29:42 PM

Does anyone want my children?

I swear, I just want a few hours at a time of quiet, and peace. Please?

Don't get me wrong, I love my children. I really do. There are just times that it's *too much* ya know? Like tonight. They play music too loud, and then I ask them to turn it down, and they do, but then go and pick up an electric guitar thing that makes loud noise, too. Or the little snot picking up on the extension while I was on the phone. (it was embarassing and I'm soooo sorry!!) And they are NEVER quiet. Even when they are in their rooms, they sing, talk to themselves - or worse, they play with things that make noise..... My little one even talks in her sleep - LOL (OH, and when asked if she could just be quiet for JUST a minute, she looked back at my husband, puzzed, and said "I have to talk to breathe!")

Just today I was wishing for the motivation to get some writing done (not just this writing, but OTHER writing, fan fic for my site) and I just don't know HOW or WHEN...

And Mark simply does NOT understand. I want time alone with HIM, but I also need time alone. My time. Time to think, write, relax. Time to take a bath or read a book. To yak on the phone, or sit out on the back porch and stare at the moon....
posted by ...deb at 8:56:36 PM

Daily Zen Meditation
Better than a thousand hollow words
Is one word that brings peace.
Better than a thousand hollow verses
Is one verse that brings peace.
It is better to conquer yourself
Than to win a thousand battles -
Then the victory is yours.
- Buddha in the Dhammapada
posted by ...deb at 2:36:39 PM

Jixemitri Message Board
Great new background!
posted by ...deb at 9:50:13 AM

It's Saturday!!!

Aren't you glad that the weekend is here? I seem to have lots of inner engery today, and I'm hoping it will hang around. It's almost 8 AM, so I need to wake up Mark so that we can start getting ourselves together to go to the gym...Katie just this minute rolled out of bed to tell me "It's a stay home day" and I actually have been to the grocery store already! Hooray, we now have milk, bread, dog food, cheese and cinnamon waffles!

Happy saturday, everyone! Enjoy your day (for those of you who are off) and for those of you who go into the office, hopefully it's quiet and you get done everything you wanna get done :-0
posted by ...deb at 8:03:42 AM

I've been trying to catch up on my blog readings, and came across this one...

Soignée - October 29th, 2000.

And the following stood out to me: "I so wish I had talked to her that last time she called... It seems so weird... She called, I was in a bratty mood and knew I'd be no fun to talk to so Dan told her I was busy... She said she'd just call back later and she never did... And now she's gone and I'll never know what we would have talked about for the last time..."

Dear God. I can so imagine myself in this scenario. Don't we all have spells when we are snippy, and blow off our dearest friends, knowing that, because they love us, they'll be there for us next time.

So here I sit, all weepy tonight. Feeling Heidi's pain. Thinking about all of Ginko's friends and aquaintenances. Though I've never met, never corresponded with many of them, across the miles, I can sense their sense of loss, their sorrow, their anger...

::::sigh::::::

((((big hugs)))) out to all. Don't forget to let your friends - those you see in person, those you've met on line, those you haven't seen in years - know that you love them.....
posted by ...deb at 9:13:59 PM

In Memory Oh, this really gives me the chills. It makes me so sad, so reflective.

I'd never seen this site before, but found a link here, late last night, from Kitty and Silver.

Please read it, and be thankful that YOUR demons are not to this point. I know that I'm thankful that my demons are not that loud....
posted by ...deb at 11:56:15 AM